In what seems to be a reoccurring theme in my career, I've pushed myself to the point of having no idea what I'm doing once more. But this time, it's different.
I thrive in areas that are new to me. I'm a junkie for being out of my depth. I'm more comfortable outside of my comfort zone than within it.
I TOOK ON A MANAGERIAL ROLE
I started my career with no idea what I was doing. Fresh out of university with a degree in interactive media, I did a six-week unpaid internship at a special effects / video game / web agency. I picked up all sorts of bits and bobs, but was ultimately drawn to the web side of things. I followed basic CSS tutorials and muddled through client projects. I had no idea what I was doing, but I loved it.
After the internship, no one would hire me as I had too-little experience. So I started my own business and did freelance work for anyone who would pay me. I had no idea what I was doing, and I messed up a lot. Business was far from my strong point. But it served its purpose and as soon as I had the relevant experience I closed it down and moved along. Taking with me all the lessons I learned in both business and frontend development.
When I started a meet-up, I had no idea what I was doing. But I stuck at it, I learned from my mistakes, and five years later Frontend NE was one of the biggest tech meet-ups in the North East. After around 60 meet-ups, XX speakers, two conferences, and over 6,000 attendees.
I even started a Youtube series called, I have no idea what I'm doing. A title that was just as much about YouTube itself as it was about the subject of the videos. It wasn't a roaring success, but I did learn a lot from it. I'm not about to start another YouTube series, but the skills I gained went a long way in helping me work remotely and asynchronously at GitLab.
TALK ABOUT SOME THINGS BEING FAILURES BUT EVERYTHING IS A LESSON
I DONT KNOW IF THIS WILL BE A FAILURE OR NOT BUT I WILL LEARN